9.28 *Pardon my Russian
Don't you just hate when you know you need to do something...
Insider edition of my quick tips
Wow, I don’t know if it is the caffeine, my post workout shakes or the bloody fact that I just emailed Michael Timm about getting my master freedive certification. Dammmmnnnnnitttt I swear I don’t why I do this to myself, well like I do but I don’t. It is so uncomfortable. I have a bare minimum of when I am taking my 5 minute cold shower to hold my breath for at least one minute. For whatever reason, today I was freaking. Yes, I still did it but barf. I wanted to punch the tiled wall.
Sometimes I wonder, is it when we hold our breath which we are all super capable of doing - like literally, physiologically - our mind just rages. Hm.. have you ever let a child just tantrum? It is healthy. They need to. Is my mind raging this morning? What did I do differently? When I hold my breath or pause for an uncomfortable amount of time - who is it actually uncomfortable for? This BEAST of a body or my two year old mind? I think I know the answer.
Time to grow up and get out kid. I want you to rage. FUCK. This means training. DAMNIT this means more whines, screams, pissing myself. Yep… probably blacking out too.
I sit in a cafe. Coffee and Water next to me. I am shaking. I am nervous. There could be an earthquake as that is often here. I might just die in two seconds? I heard the vaccine is doing weird shit.
Ew - I think I am going to live in a constant state of earthquake. Why am I laughing.
Whatever.
I love the water, I love being under its membrane.
I love looking up when I am corpsed to the bottom.
I love forgetting about me.
I love ascending in a blissed state of being.
I love taking my first breath after breaking through her lining.
My shakes have subsided and I look at this rusty wooden Kaladi’s table - my coffee cup is at the far end and I have taken multiple sips of my ginormous YETI H2O chugger.
Deep breaths.
It’s going to be okay, kid.
You can do it.
Hold on.
...thanks to the merman @ak_spearman for looking up and pressing snap <3
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